We had a great reflection day last Saturday for those of us in formation as vowed sisters and associates. Our topic was spirituality, and the sister who was leading the day guided us as we got in touch with our deepest desires spiritually. Which is when I realized ... the reason I'm feeling a bit off balance isn't so much because I'm busy, but because I haven't been making time and space in my busy schedule for solitude. I'm reminded of these words from Henri Nouwen:
One thing I've come to learn about myself, certainly, is that I need solitude. It's in the quiet that I'm best able to find Jesus, to listen to the Spirit, and rest in the heart of God. So ... I'm trying to practice some spiritual self care. I have an acupuncture appointment set up for Friday (to deal with some headache/asthma issues). Sunday I'm going to a half day young adult retreat. And I've managed to find some time in my busy schedule in December for a quiet retreat weekend. Hopefully, just being aware of the busyness/solitude quotient will help me find the balance that at the moment, seems a bit elusive.Many voices ask for our attention. ... But underneath all these often very noisy voices is a still, small voice that says, "You are my Beloved, my favor rests on you." That's the voice we need most of all to hear. To hear that voice, however, requires special effort; it requires solitude, silence, and a strong determination to listen.
That's what prayer is. It is listening to the voice that calls us "my Beloved."
How do you find balance?