freak outs and flights of fancy

Mark over at Stumbling Toward Divinity writes about his blogging practice:

When I started, I thought that I'd just take this blogging opportunity to show to the world that I am on the way to being the next Frederick Buechner or CS Lewis... That people would be impressed and moved by my musings and thoughts and insights and stories, and soon I would be a famous blogger. Well... ok. I don't think I was ever foolish enough to think that I would achieve either of those things... But it was kind of fun to think about what it would be like if they did. I didn't think that it would end up being a journal of all the freak outs and flights of fancy that I embark on on a daily basis. But, right now, that is apparently what this blog has become. And I'm trying to decide if that is a bad thing or not.

Hmmm…. Considering that what I was planning to blog about was a personal “a ha” moment that hopefully will prevent a freak out (and considering my last indie nun post which was arguably a flight of fancy”) guess I’m in the same boat. Dear readers, what you have here is basically a view into the random musings I have on a daily basis. I’m not sitting here trying to dream up brilliant insightful posts. Instead, I have a random thought and then I sit down to blog about it. Which all in all I do not think is a bad thing. After all, if you’re interested you’ll come by and read about it. If not, you won’t. And I get the opportunity and fun-filled challenge of trying to write my random musings in a form that is understandable and digestible outside of my own head.

Which takes me to the break through “a ha” moment I was going to write about before I read Mark’s post. Yesterday in an email to a friend who is experiencing deep grief over the loss of a loved one, I gently cautioned him not to over-busy himself in lieu of sitting with the grief. I also recognized it’s a balancing act and that I don’t know how not to do that, but cautioned him all the same. Then, at about 3am when I woke up from yet another chaotic dream filled with doing things, I realized …. I am so busy right now getting ready to close up shop at work & home, I’m not really taking the time to be present with the reality that I’m leaving. So I guess I can use my own advice. Again, don’t really know how to accomplish it, but recognizing the situation is the first step I think.

On that note, off to the office to over-busy myself!