But now on to the actual topic of this post. The other day I found myself thinking ... Novitiate is hard and a little odd at times, but at least I'm not miserable as I was at my job. A blog quiz last spring measured my job dissatisfaction level at a whopping 65%. I decided to take the quiz over today using my current reality as a Novice as my "job." I answered truthfully. And what does the survey say?
Your Job Dissatisfaction Level is 25% |
Your job is not bad, but it's probably not a long term thing. You're just not happy enough to stick around for too long... And there's little that can change how you feel. Start looking around for other options, but only quit for something really good! |
A fairly accurate picture. Not perfect as a daily existence but manageable and worthwhile .. for now. Novitiate is not a long term thing. One year of Canonical Novitiate (a time away for intense prayer, study and reflection) followed by one year as an Apostolic Novice (where I'll be involved in some full time ministry along with time to "integrate" those experiences). And the fact that it's not a long term thing is a good thing. But if I'm honest, so is this experience - at least at the almost 4 month mark.
I remember reading recently at a frequent blogstop a reflection of a former monk on his life in the monasatery: "He says that being in the monastery was like putting the lid on and turning up the heat - that it forced and 'sped up' an inner confrontation of illusion. ... They seem less hassled and harrassed by the pressure and rushedness of the culture."
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Putting the lid on and turning up the heat. What a perfect description of Novitiate as well. It's not something I could handle for too long, but if I manage to come out the other end "less hassled and harassed by the pressure and rushedness" of the world, that would be a very good thing.
In any case, 25% is MUCH better than 65%! And I'm much less likely to be sued (I was sued 3 times in my old job) or declared "Rogue of the Week" in my current endeavors. Instead I'm just focusing "primarily on my transformation in Jesus Christ," as our Constitutions say. That's all. Piece of cake, right? ;)
4 comments:
Good on you! :)
Just wanted to say hi and affirm that this is still one of my frequent blogstops too, even if I don't comment often. I'm still following your adventures with keen interest, and sometimes even saying some prayers for you.
Peace
I just want to say hi, too. I've followed your blog off and on for awhile and enjoy it very much. I once thought of the religious life but didn't end up going down that path. I am now thinking about the secular Carmelites. Saw that you are reading Julian of Norwich -- I love the quote about "all shall be well, and all shall be well, and all manner of thing shall be well". Wishing you well!
Wow, Susan! I am so glad to see that your job satisfaction is up. I took the quiz, I'm 6%! Yipee!
It kind of makes sense that one would not have 100% job satisfaction in your current position since one cannot stay in the novitiate forever or even for a long time. There are probably aspects one would like to savor forever, but in reality novitiate is only temporary, an "overnight" of sorts on the way to the (final) destination. So I think your score is a pretty good sign!
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